THE UNUSUAL EXPERIENCE OF ALLAN EMERY

IN SPIRIT RELEASEMENT THERAPIES

I suppose I have been a healer all of my life. I did not realize I was a healer until later in life. I met a woman online who asked people's opinions on accepting the recommendation her daughter be put on ritalin. She gave examples of her daughter's behavior. Somehow, I intuited that her daughter's behavior was in response to hers, and not compulsive. I wrote her a private email telling her there was nothing wrong with her daughter and that she was the problem. It took another email, but I convinced her. I told her what to do with her daughter, basically to communicate better, and two weeks later her daughter's therapist withdrew the prescription saying she had made such progress she didn't need it.

Then the woman asked me what she could do to improve herself. Like a fool I told her and she did it. She made remarkable strides. She was brilliant, resourceful and willing. Then she hit a wall. She spoke of her father positively, but always suspiciously briefly. I realized immediately that she was full of repressed memories and something horrible had happened. One day speaking with her by phone I made her accept that these memories were not bad dreams and she snapped. Realizations flooded her.

When she did, a lilting voice with a thick oriental accent started coming from her. It told me that she knew me from several lifetimes in the Far East and that I was a famous healer there. If I would fly to this woman's home we could heal her. Now, this woman had been systematically sexually abused from the age of 2 to 14 and did not remember any of it at first. I did not think I was capable of assisting someone with such serious and deep rooted issues. Finally, I said I would try on the promise that if I didn't feel we succeeded she would get professional help. She agreed, then the oriental voice came back, It said: "You know they will just give her drugs and rob her life from her. She does not need that. She needs you."

I did fly down there. I stayed 5 days and we had the most amazing healing sessions. She would put on plays for me where she would play the roles of herself, her father, and her fractured selves. For some reason I was drawn to her hands. I would massage the palms of her hands with my thumbs and talk to her. The oriental voice would give me pointers from time to time. I have no idea how, but she was healed. Then the voice said that people as powerful as she and I were not normally allowed to meet. But, since she was in such need an exception was made. Part of this process was pulling out a demon which she claimed had been attached to her spine near her abdomen.

I cannot say for sure whether demons are external things which inhabit people or things they make up themselves. The mind is such a complex and talented thing that I cannot possibly fathom all that it is capable of or how it is organized. All I can say is that the demons I have encountered seem to have knowledge of things that the host could have no way of knowing. Whether the host's talents are enhanced or the demon brings outside powers is not something I can determine. I don't think it matters because it seems to work exactly the same either way.

Her demon would manifest itself by speaking to me in horrible insults and making claims of power over the host. It claimed to have control and that I was nothing. It would then list all of the horrible things it had made her do in her life, as if it was proud of these things. I would laugh and say that it was nothing, anybody can do such things. It was simple human nature. What showed real power was to get someone to do something against their nature, selfless things, and I could do that "and you can't!" I said to the demon. This disturbed it.

In this case, the host was aware of everything happening and was giving me feedback as to what was working and what wasn't. I think this was due to the strength of the character with the oriental accent. This allowed me to "experiment" and to learn the demon's strengths and weaknesses. As we narrowed it down we found that the demon was very susceptible to being spoken to in terms of authority. I think this is because there is a void in the host concerning authority that the demon exploits. They had such bad experiences with authority that all authority figures were rejected in a blanket gesture. The demon, being interpreted as internal, was allowed to continue as the only true authority, as it was the only of the personalities that had a proclivity for taking actions without concern for consequence.

I went home when we had successfully accomplished what we had set out to do and didn't think much about it for a while. Since then, I have been presented with no less than four more women who have multiple personalities. With two of them I actually speak to the other personalities. We chat online and they erase the conversations before the host wakens. Others manifest themselves, but in very subtle ways that require great attention to recognize.

I asked a friend who is a very well respected psychologist about this. He told me they were all faking. That he had never gotten anyone with multiple personalities to trust him in less than 4 years. That there was no way that they would show me their alternates in less than a year. I knew he was wrong.

What I knew was that all he had as tools were academic ones. I had tools he could not fathom. I could, in a short period of time, convince them they were loved. Not as mistresses, but as people. I am a poet and writer. I can write things tailored for them that reach their subconscious and help them to see what I need them to see. This changes everything. Now, here comes the fun part. I get a phone call from one woman I know. She is telling me about a nightmare she had where she was inside another woman. It was painful. She told me to check my email. In the morning I checked my email. She had drawn a portrait of a woman. It was a friend who lived in another country. All the email said was, "Who is this woman?" I was the only one she ever showed the picture to and she knew it was for me. This kind of strange paranormal occurrence makes me wonder about the nature of possession.

I immediately contacted the other woman, who I had not heard from in months. She desperately needed me. The timing was perfect. Many, many times the "other personalities" of these women will out of the blue tell me something very important about someone I know that they don't. I think they are trying to impress me. This information is not sought. It is often not about anyone I have ever spoken to them about. It is spontaneous and unbelievably helpful. I wonder if they are trying to bribe me into letting them stay?

I don't understand it. I can't really explain it. All I can tell you is people are thrown into my path and I am expected to heal them even though I haven't the foggiest idea how. Having said that, I did study character analysis as written by Wilhelm Reich for years. I have a very broad background in philosophy. I have an unbelievable imagination and am able to handle the most heated confrontations with calm. I also have an incredible intuition which I have learned to trust. So, looking at it logically, I guess I am the right candidate if there is one.

It would be easy to think I was crazy, but the fact is that the things I do work. If they didn't I would stop immediately. But with three different women I have determined something foreign had attached to them. Something not of this plane. In each case we were able to get her to not want it any longer and let it go. Contrary to popular belief, there is no such thing as forced possession. Nothing can invade you without your consent. People with "foreign beings" attached to them necessarily invited them. Teaching them how to uninvite them seems to be my abstract talent.

The only way I have found to remove the "demons" is to make the host aware that the demon is there, is not part of them, and is no longer wanted. The rest seems to happen without much effort. How do people get demons?

I will tell you my theory on that...

There is a collective consciousness. I do not really understand the dynamics of it. I only can witness that it exists. We all have the ability to access this "cosmic database" with our minds. Typically, it happens in times of dire need, when what we know is not enough and we need to know more immediately. If we quiet the mind our emotions tune us in to those who supply the answers. it is our emotions that fuel this new understanding.

The problem comes when we learn to duplicate the action by indulging in emotion as if something dire is happening when it is not. We force the door open when it is not really appropriate. Perhaps anticipating something horrible will happen or from the residual pain of a traumatic experience. We open that door again, but this time we do not have a quiet mind. This time we have an agenda. If it is a petty agenda, no higher being will accommodate us. Thus, all of the confused lower beings rush to the experience. This is my interpretation of what happens.

In most cases they are simply misguided souls. Indulgent and bothersome, but mostly harmless. In some cases they are truly twisted souls who have no moral compass. When they are invited in, they are welcomed. In the case of a chronic abuse victim the "demon" often stays and takes the abuse as the host leaves the body and avoids the experience. This is why they do not remember. They shift their energy configuration so that they are not part of what takes place. To get them to remember is to get them to reconfigure their energy in a way that allows them to see the totality of the self. They have been living their entire lives avoiding this, so it is difficult to get them to want it.

Within the brain itself I believe there is a "spot" where the entire perception originates. It is a physical group of neurons which are part of every thought and color it with personality. Where the spot is in the brain determines the character of the person, as brain cells do not ever serve just one function but many. So, by making one group of neurons more active, it will also affect other areas of the person's life, both somatic and psychic. I also believe that this "spot" is not fixed in place and can move, thus changing the person's personality. In the case of multiple personalities, they have more than one group of neurons that become a "spot" and can switch back and forth between them, thus switching personalities.

In a normal brain, the spot will be determined by the natural development of neural pathways. Whatever is the most active place in the brain will, by default, become the "spot". Some people learn to discipline themselves to make the "spot" in an exact place. When someone becomes psychotic, their "spot" has become loose and has moved inappropriately so they lose all continuity, taking random or peripheral compulsive thoughts seriously. This is a danger when dealing with demons. Care must be taken to shore up the personality of the host, make it stronger, before challenging the demon.

The easiest way to see the whole situation is economics. The mind and body have a finite amount of energy. The parasite is taking some of that energy in exchange for what it does for the host. Often what it does is offer awareness that borders on prescience so that the host knows what is pending before it happens and can prepare to a degree or even attempt to control. Other times, the parasite enjoys the situation the host finds intolerable. This is a very dangerous symbiosis. The real source of the problem is that the host does not value its energy enough to use it. It wastes this energy on a parasite. Why? Because the energy is destructive and the hosts cannot bring themselves to face their rage, their hatred, their fear, their despair. By siphoning off this energy to another they avoid these feelings, having not enough energy to sustain them. This saves them the pain of expressing these feelings, even though it would be the most healthy thing they could do.

So, to lose the parasite the easiest strategy is to starve it. To teach the host to do new things that require the energy they were wasting. To create balance in the neural pathways of the brain that stabilize the "spot" where perception is assembled. When they want the energy more than they want the parasite, they will let it go. The parasite knows this and lies to them. It tries to heighten their sense of despair and self-worthlessness. It does anything it can to make them feel that they cannot handle their energy. That they need the parasite to drain away the pain that experiencing this energy causes.

So, what we do is we provide alternative perspectives. Try to make the trauma impersonal. Rob it of much of its importance and energy in this way. The very first thing I try to do is point out that the abuse is over. People tend to think of themselves as abuse victims their entire lives. Since they have never allowed themselves to fully experience the memories, it is as if it will happen to them again when and if they do. This makes it seem like the abuse is still waiting to happen. Yet, the abuse has truly stopped and they have become former abuse victims. They need to make this important distinction. It must be discussed at length until they are very comfortable with it. They were victims, but are no longer! Secondly, we need to take their story and remove all that is not truly personal. I shall provide an example of this:

A 35 year-old woman was miserable because as a teenager her father had gotten drunk and raped her. She felt so worthless because out of her sisters he chose her specifically. She knew that there was something wrong with her. I asked her if he ever abused her sisters. She said no. I asked if her sisters knew he abused her. She said no. I asked her if he did abuse them, how would she know? Wouldn't they keep it a secret just like she did? It was a revelation. She asked them and they all admitted he was abusing them all.

I took it one step further. I said he really didn't abuse you. He only abused your body. It wasn't because you were you, it was only because you were available, and anyone who was so available would have suffered the same fate. He was not a human being, he was a monster. You need to see him for what he was. Would you do what he did to another? She replied, "No." Then he is nothing like you, is he? 'No." And it dawned on her she had done nothing wrong. It no longer seemed like a personal attack upon her person, but an impersonal attack upon her physical body. This was not nearly so traumatic as the feeling that her father somehow devalued her as a person. Thus, the level of frustrated energy diminished and the neural pathways became more balanced, thereby making the "spot" where perception is assembled more stable.

So I encouraged her to be angry with his actions. It was ok to hate the things he did. It was justified. But, it was not justified to hate him. She did not understand. I asked her if she had ever walked down the street and a dog barked at her. "Yes." Were you offended that the dog barked at you? "No." You understood that the dog would have barked at anyone walking there. It is the dog's nature. "Yes." Your abuser was no different than the dog. They were unable to decide what to do and acted as compulsively as the dog. It was not anything to do with who you were, but where you were. Just like with the dog. It wasn't barking at who you were, just where you were. You were available to your abuser. That was the only thing you did. Was that "wrong"? It was no more wrong than walking near the dog's home. Even if the dog bit her, she could hate the action but there would be no benefit to hating the dog. That would waste energy.

Once we remove the personal nature from the memories, much of the shame and hatred fades. Now the parasite must work much harder to be fed. The wasted energy is dwindling. This is the time we must build the self-esteem of the host. What I do is I focus on the positive results of their experiences. Even when bad things happen, good side effects take place. Such people tend to be very sensitive, not only in the negative ways, but in the most positive ways as well. They have a capacity to love that is far beyond what is "normal", after all, they spent the better part of their lives loving a monster. I try to emphasize the great gift this sensitivity is and inspire them to use it. Often the sensitivity comes with great intuition. When they use this for selfless purposes their self-worth skyrockets.

Once a parasite is sufficiently starved, it will begin to fight back. Typically, it will cause the host to say and do things you will not approve of. It will try to personally offend you. If it succeeds, you will lose much credibility. The secret is to accept all information and insults gracefully. To say, I understand why you are saying this and it is OK. I am not upset. Keep the energy in their minds as balanced as you can.

Eventually, it will gather all of its wits and stage a final battle. Any pettiness or hatred that was hidden and not uncovered in the process of the "therapy" will be utilized to inspire an attack. It will be vicious and unexpected. If we let it catch us off guard we will lose the battle, and our credibility. We can not put the battle off to another day. When it comes, we must be ready and willing to fight until it is over. Otherwise, they will never be free of the parasite. It was developed in a high intensity situation, and like heated glue must be reheated to take furniture apart, we must also reheat the mind to remove the parasite. This is where professional therapists are at a distinct disadvantage. These battles have taken 3 hours to 36 hours before. One has to stay with it and see it through. This is the real difficulty. Few can care about another enough to go through such a prolonged fight and yet maintain the level of detachment needed to win it. Typically people either care too much and cannot be detached, their ego makes them susceptible to the personal insults of the parasite, or they do not care enough to be willing to expend the sheer volume of energy it takes to win such a battle. This is why treatment of such people is typically unsuccessful.

What ends up happening in the final battle is that the host fully realizes the things they are saying do not truly come from them. The things they say do not reflect their true feelings. Yet, they cannot stop themselves from saying them. It is this realization we have been striving for the entire time. They finally realize that the person saying these things is not them. Only then do they fully realize the hold of the parasite. They will then separate from it and in the process all of the memories that were hidden come to view. If they are prepared to deal with them, it is over. They will now witness everything from the proper "spot" and the neural pathways will once again flow more naturally. If they are not prepared to deal with them, then they will react with hatred and fear and the parasite will awaken again for another round. The brief glimpse each round, however, is an important part of the process. Each time it happens it is less traumatic for the host, who learns to expect that sense of clearing and gains a better foothold each time.

Either the host expends all of their superfluous energy, and the parasite starves to death for the moment, or they have an epiphany that they can see themselves and their past vastly differently. Then the parasite is locked out. In the former case, we have a brief window to attempt to get them to the place where they can lock it out and must push them, often beyond their wishes. Again, this is a place where a professional is at a disadvantage. In that situation I have no liability as I do not charge.

Once the person has learned to balance the activity in the neural pathways of the brain, they should have a more normal approach to things. They will still have the "shadows" of the other "spots" and it will affect them for the rest of their lives, but they should be free of the uncontrolable shifting to other spots because they have created a more balanced and natural flow of energy in the brain. The "demons" will have lost their source of energy.

Allan Emery is a philosopher, composer, poet, and writer who lives in rural Maine, USA and justloves to know everything possible to know. He believes in keeping an open mind and that we often can make use of understanding that is not logical. "The universe is not bound by our logic or our description of it." he says.
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